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The Vampire Diaries - Damon/Elena - Be Real

This fanmix ate my brain. This is for season one, eventually I might make a mix for season two. Basically, this thing is getting me through the hiatus and I thought it might help someone else out there too. ; ) One song for (almost) each episode in season one.

Warning ::: Lengthy, possibly ranting explanations as to why I picked these songs. (Note how the explanations get longer as the time got later and my mind got ramble-ier...) The zip is located as a prize at the bottom of the page as a reward for making it through. Thanks for your time. Enjoy the mix!

Song One: 1.02 - The Minute I Met You - New Found Glory (Damon to Elena)
I will never tell you this,
but I'm scared of falling apart,
It may seem like I'm holding it together but the weather is making it hard,
Never mind the time or the spinning of your head,
I could tell my life was changing, Since the minute I met you,
And if I stop,
Ever thinking of you,
I'd probably choke on the words I never said,
And if I stop,
Ever thinking of you,
I'd bury my heart and fall back in my bed,
And what a sight that'll be,
All my friends surrounding me,
Just cause you've made it this far,
Doesn't mean you've made it.
   (This song describes their first meeting… and even though at first Damon just wanted to mess with Stefan and be around a Katherine clone… eventually, he knew she‘d change his life forever.)

Song Two: 1.03 - Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy (Damon to Elena/Elena to Damon)
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
    (The beginning of this song so perfectly describes the scene at the end of this episode. It also foreshadows how Damon will hurt Elena in the future… and how she‘ll hurt him back.)

Song Three: 1.04 - Machine Gun - Sara Bareilles (Elena to Damon)
Every dime gone to ways
You can find that might bait me
And drag me down, sight set proudly
Bring me to the ground see
You love to be somebody's enemy
Maybe nobody loved you when you were young
Maybe, boy, when you cry, nobody ever comes
Will you try it once?
Give up the machine gun

    (This episode was a little hard to find a song for, and I finally settled on this one. I figure before she knew the truth about the Salvatores, Elena most likely wondered what happened to Damon to screw him up so badly. And after she learned what Damon did to Caroline… she probably wondered even more.)

Song Four: 1.06 - Uninvited - Alanis Morissette (Elena to Damon)
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you, you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight
Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening

    (How was this song NOT written about this show? When Elena tries to hold the door closed when Damon shows up after she knows the truth… it reminds me of this song. And the whole song describes Delena very well… and it‘s a very pretty song.)

Song Five: 1.07 - It Doesn’t Matter - Alison Krauss (Elena to Damon)
It doesn't matter if I cry
Don't matter if I bleed
You've been on a road
Don't know where it goes or where it leads
It doesn't matter what I want
It doesn't matter what I need
If you've made up your mind to go
I won't beg you to stay

     (After Vicki dies… “How could it not matter?” Elena asks. This song just shows how she‘s trying to deal with all of this new paranormal information… and she‘s blaming it all on Damon.)

Song Six: 1.11 - Issues - The Saturdays (Elena to Damon)
There’s a part of me won't let you go
Keep saying yes when my minds saying no.
Me and my heart we got issues,
Don’t know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.

    (Let me just take a moment to say… I love this episode! I feel like it was a huge step forward in the development of Delena. She saved his life. And I think there was a bit of an inner struggle for Elena, and for Damon. Elena was so upset with Stefan and she might have wanted to get back at him, just a little bit… what better way to do that than being with his brother? And for Damon… she didn‘t have her necklace. He could have made her do anything he wanted… I think he was struggling with that… he wanted it to be real and yet… he‘s still Damon. Truth be told, they both have loads of issues.)

Song Seven: 1.12 - I Don’t Wanna Dance - Hey Monday (Elena to Damon)
I don't have time for another game
I don't wanna dance
So don't you ask me, babe
I don't wanna dance
You blew your chance
To rock my night away
I want some fun
Boy, you're so not the one
I don't wanna dance
So let it go
You'll never take me home

(The scene where Elena turns Damon down for a dance is so funny and sad at the same time… no love for poor Damon. I just threw this song in for fun… the rest of the mix is filled with angst [just like this ship!] so I thought a few fun, deceptively happy songs would help it seem a little less hopeless.)

Song Eight: 1.13 - Trust Me - The Fray (Damon to Elena)
When you're older, you will understand
If I say who I know it just goes to show
You need me less than I need you
Take it from me
We don't give sympathy
You can trust me trust nobody
But I said you and me
We don't have honesty
The things we don't want to speak
I'll try to get out but I never will

  (This episode and the next two deal a lot with trust. Elena and Stefan both betray Damon‘s trust and he doesn‘t take to it kindly. The scene in the kitchen in this episode reminds me of this song… he wants to trust both of them so badly… but something inside of him tells him he can‘t. And he‘s right.)

Song Nine: 1.14 - Hold Me In Your Arms - The Black Keys (Damon to Elena)
I need you, need you by my side
Lonely evenings, eyes are open wide
Nothing you say could make me turn my back
Well I see you, and you see me too
Moon is rising, night will be here soon
Follow me, and lay down in my room
Hold me, hold me in your arms
Well now heal me, heal me with your touch
Your touch keeps me hangin' on

    (The hug at the end of this episode… Elena put all of her hate aside for a moment and realized that Damon was hurting, he was showing his human side… and she was there for him. And it was what he needed. And this song describes that beautifully.)

Song Ten: 1.17 - Protecting Me - Aly and AJ (Elena to Damon)
Hold me tight with all your might
And you'll never let me go
Protecting me
You listen to me when
I speak out loud and you
You know right when my heart's been bent
When my life’s tumbling around
You take me off the ground
You tell me everything’s ok
Whenever, where ever baby
You'll protect me
No matter what

    (This episode is another one of my absolute favorites! The scene in the rain… and when he tells her he can‘t be distracted with her safety… it made me think of this song… he‘s always protecting her, even from herself, every episode it seems. And then the end of the song, she saves him too. She protects him, without even trying. She might be the only thing keeping him from going off the deep end most days and he is almost too aware of that. If he loses her… he might lose what‘s left of himself. And that‘s something he‘d like to avoid.)

Song Eleven: 1.19 - Slow Dancing In A Burning Room - John Mayer (Damon to Elena)
Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms.
Nobody's gonna come and save you,
We pulled too many false alarms
We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

    (I realize this is a bit of a corny song choice… but that scene… THE DANCING SCENE, you guys… I can‘t find a more perfect song… The looks on both of their faces… kill me every time. There is definitely something more going on there.)

Song Twelve: 1.20 - In My Veins - Andrew Belle and Erin McCarley (Damon to Elena)
And all that you can save
Will leave you in the morning
And find you in the day
Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh you run away
Cause I am not what you found
Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out.

    (Another difficult episode to find a song for… I chose this one, because I love it… and because when Elena stopped Damon from leaving and made him tell her the rest of the story of how he was turned… the contact and the look on her face… and after what Stefan did… I‘ll admit Damon might have been tempted to just leave Stefan down there forever. But he put her first and let her save him. The looks they share in that episode… in every episode, really… are outlined in this song. And considering the admission by Isobel in the next episode… he‘s definitely feeling some of the emotions in these lyrics.)

Song Thirteen: 1.21 - You Don’t Know Me - Michael Buble (Damon to Elena)
I've let my chance to go by
The chance that you might
Love me, too
You give your hand to me
And then you say good-bye
I watch you walk away
Beside the lucky guy
You'll never never know
The one who loves you so
Well, you don't know me

    (The look on Damon‘s face when Isobel tells Elena he‘s in love with her… It breaks my heart. And then she hugs Stefan and they share that look… This song just describes how he wishes they could be… but they never can. Or so he thinks…)

Song Fourteen: 1.22 - Good To You - Marianas Trench (Damon to Elena)
And I know this isn't enough, I still don't measure up.
And I'm not prepared, sorry is never
there when you need it.
And I do want you know I hold you up above everyone.
And I do want you know I think you'd be good to me
And I'd be so good to you. I would.
Thought I saw a sign, somewhere between the lines.
Maybe it's me, maybe I only see, what I want.

    (Even though he was admitting his feelings to Katherine and not Elena, he still felt those feelings. He still meant everything he said. She changed him so much and he wanted so badly to thank her for that. He truly loves her and it is a shame that Elena doesn‘t really seem to care. He was so hurt, even though he pretended not to be, when he learned the truth… but that‘s another fanmix. Anyway, this song just shows how he felt when he was telling her everything and trying to be enough for her. And it almost worked… doppelganger hijinks.)

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I have to say your song choices for this is amazing!!! I really like your song choices. I might give it a shot and download it! Sounds very angsty and pretty!!! <3 I love it very much. <3 A beautiful fanmix!
and all the songs fit them well. <3

Thanks for commenting - I tried to find appropriate song choices, though it seems there are a lot! I'm glad you love it! : )

Awesome song choices! I love these things. I'm listening to it right now (:

I'm so glad you like it! Maybe I'll make one for season two after all...

such a pretty mix, thanks for sharing

This is fantastic! I love the song choices and I very much love the descriptions! IA with everything you said! Thanks for sharing! :)

This looks lovely! Downloading! Thanks ♥

Omg amazing.

& such pretty album art. Downloading :)

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